Brandon's "Exciting" Life

Mom woke me up around 1:30 PM. I had to get a haircut, so I got out of bed and prepared to leave. Back to the plaza for a haircut. My usual barber no longer cuts hair there anymore, so I had my hair cut by someone else again. I'm used to switching barbers 30495093 times now, thanks to my family. After that, I came home while my brother and mother went to more stores.

I took the time to play games with my old Skype group, but my laptop is beginning to show its age. It doesn't run well while I am hosting both a Skype call and a game. More Mitadake High was played today. Also, a bit of little "Harry Potter" games. I don't really like them, but they're alright, I guess. I even played two different ones at the same time at one point.

I spent the end of my day reading a manga. It is called Bartender. It is pretty ironic that the manga mentions/shows alcoholic beverages often. I don't drink at all.



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By the way... she was right. "This 'good news' thing was a mind trick and more of a reason for you to bow down to me. >D ". I had that message typed, but I never entered it in. I pretended that it wasn't a trick. I even said that there was a surprise for her. With that, I made it my intention to make a surprise.

It started as a little joke, but now I intend to actually make what I said happen. Expect something soon.

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My cellphone rang around 9:17 A.M. I saw that it had a "312" area code, so I answered as fast as I could. It was exactly who I thought it was, the financial counselor that had been assigned to me based on my college (within the college). I wasn't too awake, but I noticed that she was pretty blunt and forceful in her speech. I asked her if I could ask a question at the beginning and she said, "No! You have to know this first!" I complied, basically. Talking to her became the worst phone call that I've ever had. So much bad news. Horrible news.

So, it turns out that my mom, who is a single parent, barely surviving with two sons, made too much money. I was unable to get any gift aid at all. Me, being uninformed/misinformed thought I actually had some a declined the one loan that I was offer (the only thing that I was offered besides a useless work study). I kept asking, "What about the need?" I pretty much showed that I had made a mistake somewhere along the line... I felt like an idea. It's like I single-handedly ruined my own life. All because of my mistake. So, we have nothing, nada.  We have less than I thought we did too.  I thought we had a bit of money helping us, but we have NOTHING. Wait, I'm wrong... We have a bill that had been increasing itself with every passing month. Now what? Now, I'm basically in the hole. It's as if I'm completely screwed. But, I know that I'm not. There's a way out of this...

After that horrible start of the morning, I showered and pondered my futile-seeming situation all at once. Then, I just played games on my laptop and played the PS3 (Home and Tekken 6). I got a text from Jeremiah today too. He wanted to know how I was doing. I said that I was alright, but I wish the information from yesterday was actually true: That they owed me money. I guess not though. I also received a letter that notified me about being on the Dean's list ( I got a 4.0). I wasn't pleased at all. I was upset about the fact that I have essentially been forced out of semester 2 due to money.


After that, the group that I used to play Byond games with all came on at once, so I played Mitadake High with them. I tried to Skype chat while doing that, but for some reason, it is too much for my laptop now. Everything freezes while my pc gets hot (Nice Juxtaposition... I hope I picked the correct word for that). That usually frustrates me and makes me shut off my laptop. What? It's either that or I watch helplessly.

I played with photoshop today too. I wanted to know how I'd look without facial hair again, so I edited a picture of mine as Mom watched. I even gave her an idea with decoration by accident. I demonstrated the clone brush and she liked how it looked. Funny.


I talked to Rikka at the same time for a bit, but I was disappointed when I found out that she was doing badly again. She had been doing fine for quite some time. I need the memory erasing light from The Men in Black or something. It would help. Surprisingly, I also watched the end of Halloween Town on Disney. I don't know why the movie came on randomly in February, but it did. I thought that Disney would rerun something like The Color of Friendship (The underlining is a English class habit) or something.

So, I sit here at 4:15 AM, (I always post them so they show in the correct day slots) a bit troubled by my situation, but optimistic. Optimistic about what the future holds for me. I'm not screwed, I know it. It isn't over yet.

No matter how hopeless it seems, I won't go down or give up.

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I woke up pretty late by accident and decided to call up the Financial Aid offices in order to straighten up what was going on with my student bill. You know,  the reason that I'm not in school this semester. I honestly dislike dealing with the phone. They kept referring me to the same number that I used to talk to them in the first place. I also called a few of the incorrect departments after waiting for the holds. The jazz music that they played was fine, but the continuous cut-offs ruined it. From what I was seeing, I was never given my financial aid money and it was all of their fault that I had to leave housing, be locked out of classes, etc. Their fault, not mine. I have to wait until tomorrow to find out about the full details from my counselor.

After that, I worked on my Byond game for a long while until Terrence texted me and said that he was waiting for me to sigh on to yahoo. When I did, he actually had to give a teaching. It was unexpected and I was playing Tekken 6 with a friend at the time, so it was kind of inconvenient and random. He never even told me that we had to do this. In the end, it wasn't too bad, but it lasted for a long time.

Lastly, I watched TV. I watched a movie about women in prison who were treated harshly. Then, the women revolted, got a hold of guns, and got hostages. They also exposed what was going on to the public. Lots of them were killed before the rest were released though. Standard BET, I guess. I honestly don't ever watch the channel.

So, I made progression. A step closer to finding out info about my financial aid problems and closer to finishing the game (Different from the other game).

[END]

I briefly played Home and Tekken 6 today, but I spent a majority of the day working on a game. A stupid glitch held me up though. It's annoying, but I will find a way to fix it eventually. I will take a break and relax on it now.

[END]

A little bit of gaming

A little bit of working on games again

I also looked at my old comics again. Seeing them made me feel proud of myself. It has been such a long time! If you care to look: http://brandoncomics.blogspot.com/ (Two "series" are there. One is based on my Senior year of high school while the other is just a normal narrative)

I remember when I used to draw them for my friends to read. I don't really have that opportunity anymore... But, seeing those still cheer me up.

I guess that's all for now.

[END]

I continued my Byond and PS3 gaming, enjoying my online gaming. I also discovered new manga series which I think will be great.

Today is Sunday. Without anything better to do, I sat on my laptop and played the Ps3. I mean... what else is there to do?

[END]

I woke up at 10:00A.M. to one of Tim's weird alarms on his cellphone. I also had a text message. My mom was arriving an entire hour early. So, I got up and got ready. I also took the time to break the news to a few more people via text message. It got some of the saddest responses back...  Immediately, my mom and her were at the school and I was moving things out. I even got help from others on the floor.

The entire ordeal upset me. Reality was hitting me in the face again. I was actually leaving my university prematurely. I had to be checked out of my room, but when I did, it was the end of it. I got in the car and was driven away. I felt a bit sad while I sent out my final goodbyes through text messages. I'm gone now.

On the way home, our group stopped to have food before continuing home. Mom and my brother went to a kid's birthday part while I remained home and unpacked. It was pretty frustrating, but it was done eventually. I also got a chance to try all of the things I won on Ebay, which was nice too.

Burnout Paradise's updates took up lots of my night though. I spent the last of my night blogging and talking to Terrence, Emmanuel, and Rikka (briefly).

I cannot believe that I'm really gone. A part of me feels incomplete, but I'll handle it. I cannot become the way that I was for the past few weeks. I'll be ok. It's just sad.

"This is my final goodbye"

[END]

Today was Friday. Officially my last day here at the university. Fortunately, I didn't have to put up with any of the nonsense that Bryan and Anita do because they stayed somewhere else, out of the room, away from me. I stayed in my room for the first half of the day, playing video games and enjoying what little time I had left in my room.

[Skip to around 4:00A.M.]

After eating, I got a text message. It was from Jen, a friend I met in the beginning of the year. We haven't hung out in a long time. She has more friends, I guess. She asked if I could help her with Spanish, but I honestly could only find a few mistakes. I took that time to break the news to her as well. She wasn't too happy either.

I don't know what it is. It's like I'm the one who breaks the news of a family member being dead to their family... It is saddening, to say the least.

Jen practically forced me out after she found out that she was keeping me from another occasion. I would have stayed.  I ended up tagging along with Alex, Grant, Jessica, and Di Di in order to visit the "Free Store". There was a lot of junk around, but I ended up picking up a mouse, a walkie talkie, and a memory disc for a camcorder. When I tried them, I threw out everything except the disc.

Next after that was Friday Night Live. I was hesitant to even go because I thought that I'd be bored, but I went anyway (After trying to persuade Alex from going). The theme was Carnival and we played a few games and even DDR/Rockband before leaving. I enjoyed myself, honestly.

I received a glow stick from the place, which I wore around my arm and later, my neck. Having that made me feel cool. I stayed up pretty late actually. I even rode my bike in the hallway because it was my last day. There was also a small group picture and a little party down the hall, which I checked out.

Lastly, Timir, a guy on our floor came back with injuries to his face, but I talked to him later. He'll be ok. People are nice.

To end the day, I went to bed around 5:00A.M. -ish. Tim stayed over and crashed in Bryan's bed since Bryan left with Anita again. That would be the last time I saw my roommate before I left.

This was it. My last night (kinda) of sleep here. It would all be ending soon.

[END]

I woke up to Bryan and Anita's whispering again. It has been the third night that Anita has stayed over. I don't mind, but it is kind of weird to see her around during my last moments here. Especially since the last time that I saw her was sometime in the beginning of the school year. After waking up, I worked on packing a bit. I actually got everything except for my clothes packed. As I did so, Anita and Bryan was getting intimate. It wasn't annoying at first, but I was kind of still in the room. I just ignored them. I went on about my business as they did the same.

I also gamed quite a bit today. I played my RPGs again. I also finally got enough SP to save in Persona 4. You see, I was out of SP and I couldn't leave the TV world or else I'd lose the game, so I stayed and searched for SP items. But, I got a card that fully recovered my SP at the cost of 99% of my HP. I quickly healed the HP though. No problem, right?

Later on, I broke the news to Tierra via text message. I wanted to do it in person and I saw her at lunch, but she quickly hurried out as I was stuck in a line. So, there was nothing much that I could do about that. I decided that it was better to text her than to not tell her at all. I immediately got a negative response, like most people. It's kind of nice to see so many people caring, but also it is sad to see so many people saddened by my situation.

I played the Wii for some time until Alex wanted to go somewhere else. I escaped that and ran to Alain's room for the time being. We watched a bit of TV and even watched a documentary of Justice's tour. Craziness ensued. Eventually, Tim called me and tried to invite me to a tea party that I didn't want to go to, but when he put a girl on the phone that I knew, I couldn't say no to her...

I went to the tea party and relaxed there for a bit. With Isabel, Jessica, Tim, and Alex. I never decided to have any tea, but I came at the end of it, apparently. When it got a bit later, Isabel left and the rest of us gathered Jessica's things and took them to her room. We saw Stephanie on the way, but I couldn't bring myself to break the news to her...  We stayed in Jessica's room briefly until Tim quietly urged me to break the news to Jessica. I became a bit sad and made an excuse to leave without telling her.

I ended the day watching Jeremiah finish up Dead Space. However, at the end of the game something scared Tim and made him jump. This caused Jeremiah to go into a laughing fit, waking  up David. David came out of his room and complained. I guess it was 1:00A.M...

Not too much time left. My time is near. I'm not sure how I feel about this.

[END]

Even though I didn't see it, that dog was in my bed again. Hermie, Anita calls it. Whenever Anita sleeps in Bryan's bed, it falls to my bed and lands in such a precise fashion that it is in my face. I heard them talking... whispering about it, but they removed it before I opened my eyes to see it. So, today's highlight was interesting.

At around 5:00 P.M. I decided to go to dinner. As I was walking to the cafeteria, an RA stopped me and said, "I'm going to need you to evacuate". Caught off guard, I answered with "what" and she repeated it. So, I left. I went to the cafeteria. It seems as if EVERYONE from the dorms went there, so it was very crowded. It was a pizza day. A day where all of the food lines are extraordinarily long and the pizza is the fastest food that can be obtained. I ate with Tim, Hayley, Charles, and Hayley's friend. I don't know her name though... Oh wait, it was Alyssa. After dinner, everyone was still trapped in the Student Center building, so we all just waited there for a extended period of time. Apparently, there was a suspicious package in the area and someone called the police. It was checked out and proven to be a false alarm though, so I got a chance to go back to my dorms. With that, I chilled for a bit and played games until Terrence was ready to teach me a few things. I'm glad that he did it too. I really appreciate what he taught me.

I took the remaining time of the day to talk to Rikka via Skype. I still had a few loose ends to tie up anyway. That was a success after a bit of bickering between the two of us. So, everything is back to the way it was, which is good.

Bryan and Anita came back around 3:00 A.M. I was up and using my computer to rewatch The Angry Video Game Nerd Videos. I love those. I also played SSX3, which Bryan easily recognized. That surprised me. While I was watching AVGN, I heard them making sounds, which sounded like they were getting intimate. Then, my laptop overheated and went off. At that, I decided to just sleep. I heard them for a while until they went to sleep. No dog today.

My time is running out.


(I forgot to talk about the dream I had recently. I was at the university and there was a Thanksgiving parade going on, however, there were building that I didn't recognize. For some reason, I saw a kid's plastic sword and I wanted to get one for myself. I remember the blade having the ability to make fake blood appear on itself. So, I walked to an ice truck that was black and purple, seemingly decorated for Halloween. I don't remember if I even got the sword.)

[END]

I will continue creating fun titles.

So, I woke up today, checked my cellphone, and even grabbed my MP3 player. But, I didn't notice something in my bed. There was a dog in my bed. A stuffed one, bigger than my pillow. He was right next to me. Then, I let out, "There's a dog in my bed!" That woke both Bryan and Anita up. Alright, so I'm sure that you don't know Anita, but she was someone Jeremiah, Mikey, and I met at the convocation event at the beginning of school. Earlier today (around 3:00A.M.) I saw her in Bryan's bed, but Bryan had stepped out. She was sad and clinging to her stuffed dog. Apparently, her mother kicked her out of her house. She's dorming at the moment though, so at least she can stay. You could say that my situation is the complete opposite. I talked to her about my situation and she told me about her's. She also told me that my Bryan (roommate) was comforting her. At the time, I didn't know that it was her. ~Fast Forward~

So, I woke them up and they started to laugh at me. I returned the dog and went back to sleep for a while. When I saw them both get out of Bryan's bed, I realized that it was Anita and asked Bryan about her afterwards. I asked in secret because Jeremiah spoke to her and was treated poorly, though Mikey wasn't. After they left and returned, Anita tapped me on the shoulder and told me that she remembered me. I remained in my room until dinner. Along with Tim, I went to the cafeteria and met up with Irene and Emma. Tim urged me to break the news to them. I didn't really want to, but I did so anyway. It was a bit saddening to them at first, but I showed hope when I said that I'd visit and attend summer school.

I honestly don't like breaking the news to people. Sure, they know, but it also reminds me of the sad truth. It brings me back to reality. The reality of me having to leave. I'm at peace as far as what is going on, but my peace is temporarily broken when I have to explain it again. I've been explaining it a lot...

I decided to hang out and play video games in Alex's room. Too bad that couldn't last forever. Everyone else has school still. I'm the only one excluded. My time limit has been established. (2/1/10) is the limit.

[END]

I thought that I'd make my title more interesting today, like Cowboy Bebop's titles.

Alright, so I haven't announced this at all yet, but I've decided to do so now. I'm not upset about it anymore. Soon, I will be moving out of dorms. I wanted to put this here so that I could read this in the future and understand exactly why I was upset.

Initially, I was upset about leaving, but when the time finally came, I calmed down. I've decided to sit out for the rest of this semester as well. I will also go to summer school for the first time in order to catch up. If I do this, I will still be able to be a sophomore next semester, which is sweet.

Today's task was to go to the my university's west campus to fill out forms for my withdrawal. I decided it would be best to take a shuttle bus over there, so I walked over to the bus stop. Instantly, I saw the bus going in the other direction, so I tried to get on that one. As soon as I crossed the street, I missed that bus AND missed a bus that was on my original side. I felt cheated... After a bit of waiting and a lot of map reading, another bus came.

The bus was pretty nice and warm, but I quickly became the last one left. When that happened, they driver stopped, got out of the bus, went to 7 eleven, and smoked for a bit. Following that, I made it to the west campus. It was my second time being there, so I didn't know my way around. I decided to seek help from the information desk. I noticed that she had a bit of an accent (I like accents) and she helped me get to where I was going: The campus housing office.

When I made it to the office, I asked for the forms and received them. As I filled in the required information, the women discussed movies and a guy... I think. Eventually, I finished and took the shuttle back to my dorm. I ate lunch before I got to my room though.

I had to make sure that I e-mailed a few documents to one of the ladies from the office. After that, I hung out around the dorms and sadly began breaking the bad news to everyone.

People took it differently. One guy seemed as if he wanted to cry, a few guys became upset, some of the girls were sad, but I was only starting. They were especially upset at the fact that I was leaving with a 4.0 from last semester. Let the bad news breaking begin.

[END]

So, I said I was alright, but it got a bit worse. I know that I'm being fairly vague here, but I don't want to be specific. I planned to leave for a while until I felt better because I've been pretty blue, but I couldn't do it. Other than that, I sat around. A boring weekend indeed.

[END]

Alright, so yesterday might have been bit overboard. I'm alright now. Let's just say something has happened and I'm on a time limit. I wonder what I'll get done in that time... Also, someone is mad at me again. I need to fix that too.

[END]

It is still red... There was nothing I could do. I'm dead. Ironic... It really is the end. I die in the end...

[The Final END]

Dreams:

In the first dream, I remember being in a fairly bad neighborhood. There was also a girl criminal running around. Ironically, she was beautiful. I remember the color green being everywhere too. That's about all I remember.


My second dream was VERY familiar. Actually, I've had this same dream some time ago with a different character. I remember walking outside at night. The atmosphere was extremely calm and tranquil. I was walking to the movies, I assume. However, a freight train came past and stopped me. As I waited there, a lady and her daughter came to a stop in the same place. I remember them being Asian and the mother was older than me. I didn't hear what we said to each other, but it was a nice conversation. We patiently waited and talked together. We were even both headed to the same place. In the end, we look at the billboard and see a video playing on it. It was a nice night. Car lights, railroad gate lights, billboard lights. Peaceful and in the night.

The only difference from this and the previous dream was that the woman in the first dream was a different ethnicity and she didn't have a daughter, but the dream was the same.

[END]

Initially, I decided to stay in my room, but then I thought, "No, don't be a loner... go have some fun". So, after dinner, I decided to visit Mikey's room and watch America's Funniest Home Videos for a bit. That was pretty interesting itself. I liked that I could have some fun for once. I also paid a visit to Jeremiah's room before having a pretty lengthy conversation with my brother and later, mother. I also realized that I am able to hide what's going on in the conversation with a slippery set of words. That's a nice skill to have, I guess.

Eventually, I left Tim in my room to use my laptop. Alex also came over for a bit. I left them both there, so that I could finish my conversation with my mom. Eventually, my roommate came back to the room while I was in the hallway. Then, I saw him pass me in the hall in boxers in a shirt. Shower time, I guess it was for him. So, I left the door unlocked for him. Bad choice, I found out later.

Not even 10 minutes after I left to play Super Smash Brothers Brawl, I returned to get Alex a water bottle from my room. I didn't notice it consciously at first, only subconsciously, but I could see my case of water, which was behind Bryan's case earlier. My laptop was also logged onto the "Guest" account (I logged out of it and I have a password on my account).

After some more Brawl, Tim left and Alex went to bed. I came back, logged off the guest account and went to check the time. I couldn't, there wasn't a clock there anymore. I thought that maybe Tim knocked it behind my desk. I looked around and couldn't see it, so I checked the plug. It wasn't there at all. The plug was even in a new place. I called Tim (I thought he hid it from me as a joke like one other time) and Bryan (I thought he borrowed it) to ask if they knew anything, but they didn't. Then, it hit me. Bryan's case of water was missing too. That's why I could see my case. His was gone. We were robbed. Bryan never locked the door after he left. Someone took our stuff (They left the PS2, the laptop, the games, and other expensive stuff. Idiots.).

I'm not upset because the stuff was expensive. It's the fact that someone stole something while I was in the room next door. Right under my nose. It's time to play Mafia. Time to check rooms (just visit) and take mental notes of who took my stuff. I didn't get a chance to Skype today either, ruining what I said some time ago.

Let's turn the mood around. I have started more manga:

Summary

When a human is marked to die, a faint gray line that is invisible to most appears around their neck. As time passes, that ring becomes darker and darker, until it is eventually black, and that person dies. Kita Michiru has an unusual gift, she posses "Shinigami eyes," which allow her to see these rings. When Michiru notices that two of the boys in her Class, Akatsuki Chika and Tachibana Shito not only have rings, but that they're jet black, they reveal to her that they were supposed to die in a tragic accident six months ago. With the help of the Zombie Loan loan office, they were given a second chance at life, should they be able to pay for their debt by doing the work of Shinigami and killing malicious zombies. They petition Michiru to assist them in their efforts, and she finds her everyday life changing dramatically.

Heads

Summary

Except for times when I actually had to leave, I remained secluded in my room. I did leave to watch a movie or two though...

[END]

Today involved more of the same, essentially nothing. What fail.

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